So I was looking for a way to help relieve some "pregnancy stress" and thought maybe writing (or typing, in this case) out what happens and how I feel may help. So here is my first blog.....
My husband and I recently found out that we were expecting our first child (all was planned) and even though I read quite a few books about what to expect (what to expect when expecting is a pretty good book for first mothers out there!) I never knew what I was really getting myself into. I always hear that it's different for every woman and that couldn't be any truer (word?). I had ridiculously bad morning sickness the Monday (we found out the previous Saturday) after we found out for about 2 weeks. It tapered off soon after, although I had morning sickness all day, it was just annoying! Now at 10 weeks it's back with a vengeance and it is taking it's toll on me. I have many days where I just want to stay in bed and sleep but life goes on. I feel sorry for my husband because he takes the brunt of my complaining. He also likes to say he is having sympathy pains....what a silly goose. No book could prepare me for the crazy hormones and mood swings that we both have to deal with. I could wake up thinking, "It's going to be a good day!" and five minutes later it's, "I think I'll sleep and try again tomorrow....". I hate having these mood swings because my husband really dislikes them, I think he just doesn't understand.
I also find myself crying and often. A commercial showing a happy, smiling family does me in...I could cry for hours. If I see my dog licking the couch (which he knows he should not do, BAD DOG!) I break down because if I can't teach a dog not to lick the couch, how can I teach a child the rights and wrongs of life? Oh and when I drive, man do I get angry....All I have on my mind is getting from point A to point B safely but it seems like everyone else are non-drivers.
Physically, I already feel huge and some days I AM huge. Seriously, none of my pants fit comfortable and the silly Bebands (or Bella bands) that help keep my unbuttoned pants up are ridiculously expensive. I am dreading having to buy the actual maternity pants and shirts and bras and nursing bras. Bleh....pregnancy sure shows you how expensive it is to have a child. I also would like to know where the heck is that pregnancy glow that they say exists?!?! I sure as heck don't have it....I got the acne, fantastic!
Alright, I guess I am done rambling. I feel somewhat better. I also ate some monkey bread (totally not healthy!) while typing this out, so I'm probably, mostly feeling the sugar! If anyone happens to read this, thanks for reading and I hope I didn't annoy you with my complaining! Have a great and blessed day!
